Now, I wish I had done as much research going into this BS. I'm doing more research now as I'm trying to get out!!!! I was on overload when I had my moment of realizing this was not the truth. I knew I was among idiots but didn't realize how deep or how far up the ladder it went. I feel so stupid for dragging my children through this, and turning my back on non Jw family and true friends. Did I ever have a close friend in the hall, no. Just a handful that would only call if they needed something. Now after waking up, I've realize how many really really used us. My first husband of 21 years left because he couldnt handle the pressure from his family. I ruined xmas and all the holidays for them. He had an affair with someone who let him cry on her shoulder. I remarried to a Jw, but he's my soul mate. And is on his way out too. He is getting his ah ha moments now.
When asked what I'm reading online, by hubby or daughter, I reply "my daily dose of apostate" and smile.